After the storm, the real work begins. Before you can begin to clean up, you must survey the storm damage. I haven't been very good at that in the past. It has been too easy to mostly ignore the damage... Brush the fallen limbs into a corner of the yard, and ignore how the roof is beginning to show wear.
That has been my way. Don't look and it doesn't exist. Don't check the mail, and the bills aren't really there. Don't look at the bank account, and there's no need to worry about the overdraft charges. Don't look at the problems, don't give them an ounce of validation, and they aren't real...
Only, they are real. And when I'm not looking the problems grow.
Ignore, bury, sweep, deny, check out. That has been my mantra; my coping mechanism. I don't know where I picked it up, but I know that it isn't working. It hasn't ever worked. I only thought it did.
Today I commit to myself to survey the storm damage; to check the mail, to open the bills, to review all the problems, and begin to build a new life, a new me.
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